The night, a Window and a Stranger

The night, a Window and a Stranger 

31-Jan-2009 has been very much an audacious day in my life… When things in life are always for the neighbors we do not exactly understand the value of the twinge and panic they go through… and when it really happens to us we feel that no one understands the ache. Oh yes… Apart from the pain I have experienced an entirely different feel… To feel from other's brain… Let me explain this clearly below… 

On the night of 31st Jan 2009 when the stars were twinkling and the moon smiling low… I was in the Internet making important transactions… Oh yea... It was 31st J My friend was on a call with her friend enjoying the coolness of the breeze in the balcony… She suddenly rushed inside frightened and whimpering… I was thrown back and asked her what had happened… Since she was still in the call she said it was nothing and that a guy leaned over and peeked through the bamboo shield they have put in behind our balcony… (A house is being constructed next doors) I did not take this seriously as my friend always is shaken by small events and I believed this is much smaller as she was too casual and that the guy had peeked from somewhere long. I packed up my laptop as I was too tired and sleepy… I closed my eyes and turned around and started dreaming the dream I always dream… As goes instinct… I felt something… something stirred my thoughts… something told me to turn… I turned and I felt I saw a very quickly removed FACE from the window… I got scared… I was not sure… My head was spinning with sleep… My eyes tired and blur… Was I looking at someone??? I woke up my friend… told her about this… She said that it was my intuition… just because she told me she saw someone, I even thought I was envisioning. Still the knot in our tummy did not unwind… We put on some music and my friend very daringly peeped through the window and said that she saw no one… We were relieved and discussing the impossibilities of someone peeping through a window located at the centre of the room… Oh yea… Impossible we decided… Again… Call this an instinct or some feeling of insecurity that made me get up to peep through the window and confirm… I slowly went to the left side of the window… tilted my head and… saw... a guy… standing against the wall... He was tall and dark… and I don't know what happened for the next ten minutes… My friend later told me that I shouted at him in a very different voice, a voice she has never heard from me for the past 2 yrs she has been with me, a look that I had in my face scared and angry and mad… asking him who he is and that I'll kill him… I do not know whether it was mere guts or a sub conscious ruling of terrorism that made me shout… My friend pulled me away from the window… started calling aunty from downstairs… and then rest is not important as the watchman came for a look and called the patrol police to scare the next empty plot tenants… 

I want to speak about the reaction I later had after this experience… How long did he peep in through the window and why??? Why did he have to?? I thought about various possibilities… Was he interested in just looking or he wanted to have a look at the room, the size for a theft later… or did he want to spray something that would make us unconscious and he could break the door and come in… Was he a big thief or a petty one… Thoughts took its own path… Imagining different things… plotting various plans he could have had… Every little thing seemed to have never occurred… But one thought kept lingering… I felt when he peeped through the window he had a peep through my privacy… Why did he do that??? The thought that a guy had been peeping into my room, a guy who is unknown, a guy whose intentions we never would know, a guy who had dared to take risk… makes me immensely sick and uncomfortable… this very thought makes my nerves bulge…. Makes me angry… He had no rights… He had no rights at all…. L The very thought of the thief looking into our room, his scary dark face that did not even register into my mind comes again and again every time I wake up in the middle of the night… 

I know very well, this face and those eyes will chase me for at least a month and my nights are going to be long and sleepless… I have never experienced this kind of fear when I have heard about thieves at neighborhood… This experience has brought the reality of a stranger's impact on my life… the incident that I would never forget….